I’ve been thinking a lot about what’s been wrong in the past six months or so. I’m starting to see a trend…Someone made realize me a few days ago, the problems that I am dealing with now have been there, from when I was younger, only lately has anyone noticed them and because of my age decided to correct it. Someone told me a few day ago that I needed to take control of my situation and being under my parents roof gave me a fail proof crutch to lean on if I screw up…Yeah, Think I Know that but meanwhile while I’m making those “mistakes” I’ll be miserable because of the different privileges taken away. However, retrospectively, when you make mistakes aren’t you supposed to feel miserable because of the natural consequences of your actions? I think I’m getting closer to what’s wrong and my end goal of getting that fixed but life keeps throwing me curveballs,.
In the “shallow little beauty” news, I now have fixed the last thing that drives me nuts when it comes to my physical appearance. You can lotion and tweeze and conceal most things naturally, however when it comes to nails there is not a whole lot you can do. So I finally broke down and “got my nails done”. Just kidding, I went to Target and bought a five dollar “French nail” kit, so far so good. They look surprisingly like real nails. Thank God! I was tired of having crappy nails that chipped even if I was trying to wash my hands! That’s so vain of me I know, and reminds me of something one of my friends said. I can’t remember who it was that said it or how exactly they said it…maybe I read it…But anyway they said how they hated when girls who were gorgeous and pretty kept putting themselves down and saying stuff like “Oh I’m so ugly” or “Oh, I’m so fat” and expecting others to agree with them. I don’t know why I thought of that, maybe it was J-bird during one of our 2 in the morning talks…I’ll get back to you on that one!
Going through all the books I got out of our Church Library, again, I found some interesting things in a book called “What the Cults Believe”. The Unification church’s doctrine says that the Holy Spirit is a female. She is the “second Eve” if you will, that almost makes sense, the bible talks about Jesus being the second spiritual Adam and recompensing Adam’s sin. Therefore, there should have been a second spiritual Eve, the sin of humanity started with her, not Adam, after all. Now that I’m thinking about it, was that Mary’s role? I don’t know.
Finally I am getting everything I need for Civil Air Patrol. It’s a lot of fun, and yes, I did do it in my nails and no they did not break off and yes I got yelled at and told to file them. Other than that all is going well, even when it comes to collecting my uniforms! The supply closet was down to nothing so the officers finally broke down and ordered everything imaginable new! I’ll get my blues next meeting! So happy!
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