Crazy Dreams!

At the suggestion of one of my best friends, I will include a crazy dream that I had last night after staying up past two cleaning up her flooded basement (because she was sick). So, if you haven't guessed it by now the guy in the video is my boyfriend. :) And...parents don't necessarily like him. But I hope they will! (We're working on that and by we I mean me.) So this dream is a result of my efforts to reconcile my life seeping into my subconscious. So without further ado: Oedipus. :P

  For some reason I had fallen asleep on the couch. I heard someone knock on the door and thought to myself, "Oh, it's just the mailman." 

But then the doorbell rang so I got up and answered the door. Guess who stood there? My boyfriend! With four bags in tow. Imagine my surprise. I stood there astounded. 

"What are you doing here?!?!" I gaped. 

"I moving in," he replied nonchalantly. 

Me: "What?!?" 

"Yep, I worked it out with your parents."

Then my dad walked up and said, "Yes, we wanted to keep an eye on you guys and get to know him better. He'll be staying in your little sister's room."

Of course I'm still freaked out and in sort of a panic but my boyfriend puts an arm around me and says, "It'll be alright. It's only for two years."

"Two years?! " I think, "I'd have trouble with two weeks!" But, for two years, that's what happens. My parents changed the locks on all the doors so we're each locked in our respective rooms each night. When the two years are up, we get married and guess who the best man is? My EX! (Who I am not on goods terms with...)

So that was my crazy dream. Fat chance of that happening right? :)  ..........right? (T_T)

No Classes yet but a Job for Sure

So no sweet angel payed my bill, I miss-understood the lady who said, "Your bill has been payed". Somehow both the my friend's mom who I was with at the time and I missed the "has not" part of that. So this semester it looks like I am not going. However, I do get my pick of classes for the next one. Which makes me happy because then I won't have to do history for my humanities course, instead I can do the interpersonal communication that I wanted so badly.

Yesterday was my first day at my first job! It was a little odd at first, When I went in the owner and The Assistant whose spot I am taking seemed not to remember who I was. When it did hit them who I was, The Assistant took me into the stockroom and showed me how the place. I learned how to stock, restock, and to  order products. I also learned how to work the cash register and how to please a picky client. On Friday I start for real, just the owner and I. So wish me luck! I am so nervous and will need all the prayer I can get.

Crazy Times!

So I just got back with my parents Saturday night in the midst of a category 1/2 hurricane with some twisters on the side. Sunday was hectic people coming in and out for showers and food. We were the only place for miles that had power. Several of our friends are not expected to get power back for a week or more. Please pray for the people with whom I was staying with the seconded time there basement flooded and their generator wont start. Also give thanks to the kind angel who paid my bill (or maybe it was a mistake) at the college. I was telling my parents how grateful I was to them paying off the entire bill not just the 40% I needed to stay in classes. They looked at me like I had grown two heads and said they didn't, I showed them the receipt. We both agreed that it had been payed off (or there was a billing error, but I seriously I hope not.)

I am the Center of the Universe

A funny thought came up the other day. Since I've ran away three natural disasters have happened. If  I were into omens I would say that God will not let the world rest until I am back with my parents for good. That should be sometime in the next few hours. So once again, so sorry folks, did not mean to start a 5.8 earth quake or cause people to be evacuated. When I walk the cliffs dance!

No More Hunting

A big thank you to Mrs. P and to all college students. I now have a job working at a awesome book store. That was my dream job and i didn't even have to fill out an application. The owner of the place was there and she asked me why I wanted to work there. I said,"...because I love books and people. It is close to my school and a former employee who knew me suggested I work here." She asked if I could start tuesday because her former assistant was leaving for college. When I said yes, she said," You're hired".  And the part of it is they are closed on the days I have really big commitments!

Boston family vacation

I am going back to my parents house. I accepted option one because it really was the best option< I just looked into buying books for my classes and they are very expensive.... So I'm glad I am applying for every job possible with in a reasonable distance to CSM. Any suggestions? I've already applied to Ledo's Pizza, The Nice World, and La Footstoola. I need to turn in one for Chick-Fil-A and Arby's. But hoping I get in to The Nice World.

             A lot has happened in the last 48 hours. My parents have decided to go back on the 30 month agreement with my friends and their parents. They (my parents) thought about about it and did not feel comfortable with someone they barely knew. I was notified of this decision Sunday night when I was at my friends youth group. We were in the middle of playing poker for Mike and Ikes when my friend’s cell goes off when she picks up it is my old crushes mom. The phone gets handed to me and she runs through what I said in the first couple of sentences. I was not very happy and thought I might have the cops busting in or something equally as dramatic. But that was not the way my parents wanted to go. After youth group we went to the origonal taylor’s house (he was not there, he was working) his sudo-mom was so nice and bought me and my friend ice cream! But the agreement for that night was that I stayed at my friends for that night. In the morning I was to take my placement test and then meet with my dad for lunch. Well  one thing led to another and it was dinner before we could talk.

So here is the two contracts that I have two choose from.

Option 1: Return Home

        a. concessions

                  i. family Vacation to Boston, NH, RI

                  ii. cell phone with limits.

                  iii. paid classes at CSM + easy home school classes=Finished high school!

                  iv. paid Bio-feed back Therapy

                  v. paid Counseling/Evaluations

                  vi. Driving lessons (informal), with guarantee of allowing getting drivers license after successful first semester

                  vii. Employment, with assistance

        b. Rules

                  i. Breaking rules will not result in “punishment”, but with removal of privileges

                           1. You will deal with the consequences of you own actions

                  ii. Must allow parents to see log of cell phone texts(not internal messages unless fear of danger)

                  iii. Must maintain a C average in classes, or adjustments in privileges will be made

                  iv. Curfew: 9:30PM weeknights, 11PM weekends

                  v. choice of clothes, music, ect. Will not expose siblings to negative messages

        c. Thoughts

                  i. Parents’ attitudes and expectations on Marla have changed

                           1. Focus on building relationship

                           2. Allowing to set own standards, with in limits

                           3. Recognition of Marla’s goals before next March 7^th

                   ii. Parents’ desire to give more choice of Social Activities

                  iii. Parents desire to give more choice in standards of clothes, make-up, music, ect (no extremes)

Need to Add:

-Computer Privileges

- will not bring-up running away except for counseling purposes

Option 2: I am on my own completely. No help whatsoever.

Guess which one I choose?

Sunday Networking

It's amazing what doors open by saying "I am not living with my parents anymore". People look at you with a mixture of sympathy and that look of "been there, done that." Even the people that I am staying with have friends (now my friends) who took in a teenage boy about 2 months ago. The joke is that the church has upgraded to a better version. I am taylor 2.0. My robot counterpart just got a setting upgrade tho'. I got his old bed and dresser. The family's smell still has not worn off yet, kind of musky. My new family's church has been amazing. They have opened their arms wide, offering places to stay,transportation, and job's.

It's Legal (for a month at least)

So today we went to the Southern Maryland Center for Family Advocacy for THE MEETING. We (the family I am staying with and I) went early for me to avoid contact with my parents. My legal advisor/ personal representative, talked about what I wanted to do and we agreed on a contract. Nine short easy rules. Most of them are things that I expected anyway, such as, going things with the family and continuing my education. I have a curfew now! School night Curfew is at ten and Weekends is eleven.

Emancipation Here I come

Busy, Busy, Busy I'm setting out on my own. Checking out the schools and jobs. I keep on seeing people I know and am wondering if they will figure out where I am. But I talked to a lawyer and they said that with in 30 to 60 days I can be "free" of my parents.

So Sorry Folks

 Today is my first Day on my own. So far I am just running on fear. I left the house about 4:30 ish... Not everything went according to plan (my bike tire was flat) But right now I'm just chilling waiting to be picked up.  I talked with the people who took me in about joining public school earlier. They said we'll talk about everything tonight. How I'm going to fit into the family, getting a job, and whwther or not I'm going to actually tell my parents where I am. They are so kind and gracious. (As are my parents for even giving me "permission" to leave.)  I hope this is the start of something new and a chance for me to really grow-up, put out feelers for who I am, and LEAVE TOWN. Thank you for visiting and I hope you enjoy reading this blog. Please feel free to leave lots of comments.